Uninvited Guests

People bring sadness to your life, especially those who took others for granted. The reason I don’t trade my words and feelings is because I might have ended up  a fool to you.  And you would find me off guard too. In order to preserve myself from their seasonal feeling I prefer to be a social vegan so that I could go along with ease and peace . The feeling of restlessness is a slow poison; you might end up losing your mind or just become a scrap. No one’s going to make any effort once you are trapped, it’s you helpless, abandoned and wrenched.

I have experienced joy, love , bliss with them and then again there’s hollowness. A completely emptied circle mired with so much darkness and there’s no loophole.forget about Scape. As I am complaining about things but 

 It has a good side too. The deep interaction, an Ardent one you can say, brings some part of them in me it can be anything a habit, a guilt or maybe a favourite song from their playlist

You will find some of them in you. But eventually it will change if you’re feeling happy now then maybe you’ll be sad tomorrow , day after tomorrow or maybe after some days  but surely it is going to change . Because it’s seasonal  and you can’t blame anything which is not certain which keeps on changing. But it’s diseased like someone uninvited  keeps on banging on the door. nudging you from time to time making you aware of their existence because they’re selfish, stubborn and clingy. There’s no complete liberty in life. You have to adjust or match your step with society and people who have  complete liberty are also entitled to some titles like shameless, haughty etc.

It’s like a stretchable string between us and its pull and push away according to its will. Sometimes I forget people as quickly as the word spell itself “move on” and other times it’s a Never ending loop the more i try to forget, the more I remember, and the more I remember the more I try to forget . I don’t understand when Naoko said Wantabe to remember her, that she existed she said Wantabe to not to forget about her. In her life she never wanted Toru(Wantabe)  to forget about her, that’s the only thing she asked for.

But this is strange. Sometimes I agree with her thoughts and other times it doesn’t make any sense because I have never forgotten people from my life even though their memories are not fading. It’s too long to remember all the trash and good things too but I remember. 

But what she said is exactly happening with Toru after decades. That means she wasn’t wrong. The only thing that could be possible is that, maybe I need more time.